Jiang Lai never expected her sister-in-law to speak so directly to her.
She had thought her sister-in-law would say something like she really liked her looks, and that way, if she ever met a girl as pretty as herself, she could introduce her to her sister-in-law.
But Chi Yingyu actually came right out and said she wanted to sleep with her.
To be able to say such filthy words so bluntly—was this really the sister-in-law she used to know?
Jiang Lai was so shocked that she hurriedly straightened out her disheveled clothes.
Was this really happening?
Why would her own sister-in-law have such thoughts and desires toward her?
“Brother-in-law, do you know just how seductive you are right now? You make my heart race.”
Chi Yingyu stared at Jiang Lai with eyes full of desire.
At this moment, her brother-in-law’s body and even her face seemed to be tinged with a faint pink—who knew if it was because of shyness, or because her words had made her excited as well.
“With a great beauty like you right by my side, of course I have physical needs. Of course I feel physical desire for you. My self-control is terrible, I can’t really restrain these urges.”
Chi Yingyu didn’t try to attribute her desires to deep, bottomless love for her brother-in-law—instead, she simply turned herself into a woman who lusts after beauty.
“Brother-in-law, you’re really so pretty. Your fingers are so slender and long, the joints so distinct, your nails are those cute, pinkish ones.”
Chi Yingyu took Jiang Lai’s hand without asking and gently stroked and rubbed it with her fingers, as if she wanted to touch every detail.
This gentle sensation even made Jiang Lai’s hand feel a little sensitive, her fingertips trembling involuntarily.
“You’re exaggerating way too much.”
“Not at all. In fact, words can’t even express what I’m really thinking. Your lips look so soft and tempting, sometimes I want to bite them with my teeth. And your face and neck flush so easily—I want to savor all of it.”
Chi Yingyu felt like she was going crazy.
She’d never imagined she’d ever be so uninhibited, daring to say anything that came to mind, unable to control herself at all.
Because right now, she just felt so overwhelmed—like a dam with a crack, letting out decades of stored-up love she could no longer hold back.
“Brother-in-law, do you know? The way you look right now is exactly my type. You hit all my preferences, perfectly. Honestly, the female version of you is my dream lover. So, there have been plenty of times I wanted to use you as a ‘side dish’ for my DIY.”
Though Chi Yingyu wanted to say it wasn’t just the female version—even in the past, as long as it was brother-in-law, she liked her.
But there was a big difference between the two.
One was emotional, the other purely physical desire.
Physical desire could be explained as being lustful, but if she liked her brother-in-law emotionally too, that was something she couldn’t explain away.
“I must really disappoint you, brother-in-law…”
Chi Yingyu put on the best performance of her life, her eyes glistening with regretful tears as she confessed in front of her brother-in-law, even letting out a pitiful sob.
“I’m not the person you always thought I was. Honestly, I’m really lustful, not steady at all, and a bit repressed. My mind’s always full of nonsense, and my desires are really strong. I’m nothing like the perfect Chi Yingyu you imagined.”
Chi Yingyu’s eyes held three parts tenderness, three parts longing, three parts regret, and one part observation.
Right now, she was laying all her desires bare before her brother-in-law.
For her, this was a huge gamble.
If her brother-in-law was disgusted by what she said, then the image she’d maintained for over a decade would be completely shattered.
But if her brother-in-law could accept it—or at least not reject her—then a crack would be made in this relationship, and it would be much easier to tear it open in the future.
Desire and physical connection were like Yu Gong Moves the Mountain—if you suddenly found a stick of dynamite, the progress would speed up dramatically.
“Is it usually really hard for you to hold back?”
Jiang Lai herself occasionally had desires and would think about satisfying them herself, let alone Chi Yingyu.
When it came to desire, the older you got, the stronger those urges could be.
Her sister-in-law was already thirty, and even though she looked as young as someone in her twenties, her body’s needs and hormones would still make her fantasize.
Right now, Jiang Lai’s heart was in turmoil.
She could understand her sister-in-law’s desires, but the object of those fantasies was herself.
Just thinking about being used as a ‘side dish’ by her sister-in-law left her at a loss for words.
Jiang Lai felt that there were just too many things holding her back when it came to her sister-in-law, or maybe just too many complicated feelings.
When she heard her sister-in-law say so bluntly that she liked girls, Jiang Lai felt a secret sense of relief.
People are selfish.
She’d always hoped her sister-in-law could find happiness, but having once been a man, she understood some of men’s less admirable traits.
After spending so much time together, her sister-in-law felt more like her own blood-related little sister, and it was hard not to have a bit of possessiveness in her heart.
If it was a girl, at least her sister-in-law would never be bullied.
She didn’t know if her own daughter liked girls, but no matter whether her daughter found a partner or not, as long as she was happy, that was enough.
“It’s okay, I can understand…”
Jiang Lai also knew this was something she’d never really paid attention to in the past.
After becoming a woman, the distance between the two of them had become far too close.
And even though her sister-in-law still called her “brother-in-law,” how did she resemble a brother-in-law anymore?
Jiang Lai had learned a bit about girls’ love, but didn’t really understand what it was like for a girl to love another girl.
She could only assume it was similar to how men liked women.
So, it was natural to feel desire for the female version of herself.
“Do you really like this body of mine so much?”
Sometimes, when Jiang Lai looked in the mirror, she’d feel that she was unbelievably beautiful now.
But because this body was the female version of herself, she could only appreciate it, not desire it.
But in other people’s eyes, there was no way they could stay calm—after all, even a big star like Xu Ruobing would have thoughts about her.
Right now, Jiang Lai could actually understand it.
She could even empathize with Chi Yingyu’s frustration and suppressed desires.
“If—just if—next time you have a desire you can’t get rid of, tell me. I can take some photos for you. If you’re using me as a side dish, just imagining it must be really dull.”