“But I’ve always been afraid of her.”
“In the cultivation world, there’s always talk of innate qi. I’ve always worried that choosing a C-section would cause her unimaginable harm.”
“I’m afraid it’ll affect her future cultivation, that she’ll get angry and never acknowledge me as her mother again.”
At this, I hurried to correct myself, “It’s not that I doubt her love for me, it’s just this sense of fear I can’t control. My mind keeps going to these places.”
“Whether a C-section affects my own cultivation, I really don’t care about that anymore.”
I slumped back in my chair. When I said those words, I felt oddly deflated, “I’m just scared I’ll make her angry.”
Wang Xiao looked at me seriously, as if she could see through to my soul. Suddenly, she asked a question that left me stunned.
“Then, can I ask you something?”
“Do you love her?”
“Yes, of course. She’s my daughter—I’m the person in the world who loves her most.” I answered without hesitation.
“Actually, try looking at it from another angle.” Wang Xiao paused to think for a second. “What if I told you that you’re not actually that afraid of her anymore, you’re just too worried you, as her mother, can’t give her the best of everything—would you believe me?”
“You’re not afraid she’ll hate you for it. You’re just worried that, as a mother, you can’t give your biological daughter the perfect future.”
“It’s under this way of thinking that, faced with doctors who keep recommending a C-section, you developed such persistent anxiety.”
“You just said, if you lost your daughter, you’d jump off the building. Doesn’t that mean you’d die for her… If you look at it this way, it shows you’re not even afraid of losing your life during natural birth. So the thing you’re anxious about now might only be that one thing.”
The psychologist’s logic caught me off guard.
It was something I’d never considered.
So—
Am I not actually so afraid of Zhizhi anymore?
The root of all my worries was just… that I love her too much.
This child—carried by me, who has tasted all the sweet and bitter of pregnancy, in whom I’ve poured all my love.
Wang Xiao tore off the sheet in front of her. “Let’s finish with a psychological questionnaire. Your current situation isn’t suitable for medication. More important is that you find a way out of your own mental rut.”
“I understand most of what you’re going through now.”
“There are two solutions.”
“First, use your current resources to strengthen yourself. When you gain equal status, you won’t be so anxious about losing.”
“Second, find a way to ensure a safe delivery. With modern medicine and technology, there must be a way to put your mind at ease.”
“If not, there’s always the cultivation route. See if there’s a technique that can raise the odds of a smooth natural birth.”
Looking at the questionnaire in front of me, after pouring my heart out, I felt much lighter. As I wiped the tears from my face, I said, “Thank you, Doctor. Thank you for listening to me.”
“Please don’t tell anyone else.”
That last sentence made Wang Xiao laugh.
She found it so adorable—like a little girl, worrying her doctor might not keep her secret, repeating it for reassurance.
“Don’t worry, I promise.”
I picked up a gel pen and filled out the answers seriously.
An hour later.
Wang Xiao, looking at the forms, found Su Liumeng waiting outside.
“How is she?” Su Liumeng was clearly the most anxious one.
“Uh, moderate depression, severe lack of love, and low sense of security. She needs her family’s company.”
“When you’re with her, be extra patient. Talk to her more when you can. People who lack love or security are especially afraid of losing. That’s something she just can’t bear. Later on, it’ll be a bit more work for you. Try to surprise her with little things now and then, keep showing her you like her and will never leave. If she knows you love her and won’t abandon her, how could she keep overthinking?”
“During pregnancy, hormones make emotions sensitive. It’s totally normal. Many people have pre- and post-natal anxiety. As long as you handle it well, she’ll gradually recover.”
“She wasn’t always this insecure, was she?”
Su Liumeng nodded.
“Just relax, she’ll get better in time.”
“One more thing, if she insists on natural birth, as the Su family’s eldest heir, I don’t believe you can’t find a perfect solution. When you do, she’ll definitely be happy, and she won’t worry about harming the baby anymore. Maybe she’ll like you even more because of it.”
Wang Xiao, in black-rimmed glasses, had the scholarly glow unique to true academics.
Su Liumeng sighed.
So it really was all about the baby.
“I understand. Thank you for today. I’ll treat you to dinner when you’re free.”
Wang Xiao waved her patient’s file. “No need. Spend more time with your wife—that’s what matters.”
“I’ve followed your Weibo serial for eight years. If you dare break up with her, I’ll rally everyone online to come after you, Su family heir or not.”
Speaking of her personal Weibo, ever since Su Liumeng posted some photos from the wedding—ones that wouldn’t reveal personal information—she’d received a flood of blessings.
Wang Xiao was one of those in the know, and a renowned scholar in the cultivation world. She’d attended the grand Su family wedding.
When she heard Si Xinyan was having problems, she leveraged her credentials to beat out countless applicants and became the only psychologist invited by Su Liumeng.
Back in the quiet room.
I collected myself, wiped my face clean, and walked out calmly.
“Baby.”
“Let’s move, okay?”
Su Liumeng looked at me and suddenly said.
“Move? Move where?”
“Somewhere livelier. The school is too quiet, and that’s not good for your mood. The city’s a little better. At least after meals, you can go downstairs and watch the plaza dancing, feel some of life’s energy.”
Plaza dancing? My eyes widened at those words.
Am I old enough to join a plaza dance now?
Suspicious, I took out my ID card and glanced at it.
Birth date, 2025.
Shouldn’t be… that bad.
“It’s to watch others dance, not for you to join in.” Su Liumeng tapped my forehead.
If I’m just watching…
Maybe it’ll be fun?
After packing my things and moving to the new apartment in the city, it took about three hours.
Standing at the door to our new home, I hesitated for a long time before stepping inside.
Compared to the old villa, this several-hundred-square-meter apartment was smaller, but felt much more like real life.
“This is our master bedroom, that’s your walk-in closet, this one’s mine, the study is shared, and every room has its own bathroom.”
“That’s another master bedroom for our daughter in the future.”
“This is her closet.”
Su Liumeng introduced the room layout. “These two smaller servant rooms are for Chun Qiao and Chun Lan.”
“Both master bedrooms have private balconies, and the living room is connected to a large one. You can bask in the sun there. Oh, and I almost forgot—the living room has the biggest bathroom, with a not-so-small pool and a tub. When you’re tired, you can take a bath there. The master bath only has a shower.”
“This is the central air control. The whole house has underfloor heating, from the living room to the bedroom, so you’ll be warm walking around in winter.”
“The aquarium—let me know what you want to raise. The balcony’s a bit small, only about fifty square meters, so our baby will have to make do for now.”
I opened the master bedroom door as Su Liumeng continued, “This side is my closet, that’s yours, and the vanity is all yours—you can put your favorite skin care and makeup there.”
Wandering the bedroom that looked like a starry sea, I closed the curtains. The ceiling lights really looked like twinkling stars. When Su Liumeng switched on the lights, it all turned warm and cozy again.
Su Liumeng watched me nervously, waiting for my verdict. “This is the biggest apartment nearby. The master bedroom is just over a hundred square meters. It’s a bit of a squeeze for our baby.”
Suddenly, I turned to look at Su Liumeng.
She met my calm gaze, her heart tightening.
“Here—” I raised my arm, pointing at the wall.
Su Liumeng quickly said, “If there’s anything you don’t like, I’ll have it changed right away.”
I gave her a playful glare, then said in my sweet voice, “I mean, we’re missing a photo here.”
“Don’t forget to hang our group photo.”
I walked over and tugged at her sleeve, half-hiding behind her like a timid child, arousing an even stronger protective urge in her. “Thank you, baby.”
She looked at me, my little face lifted, eyes sparkling as if reflecting the stars. Her heart skipped a beat.
“I… I really like it.” I tilted my head, as if adding an afterthought, and Su Liumeng could no longer hold back her feelings. She hugged me tightly, taking my lips in a possessive kiss.
I stared blankly, letting her domineering ways wash over me.
“Xiaoyan.”
“I’ll definitely find a way for you to have a smooth delivery.”
“Mm.” My cheeks flushed, I fiddled with my sleeve and then spoke words that sent Su Liumeng’s heart pounding.
“You—”
“You can kiss me again.”
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