What does it feel like to sweep your own grave?
The black-and-white photo of a young, naive boy on the tombstone, the yellowed white chrysanthemums, the scattered petals and withered leaves on the ground.
Xu Yinsheng had only ever heard of white-haired people burying black-haired ones, but this feeling of burying herself… it was truly strange.
A gentle breeze blew, scattering the petals and withered leaves.
Zhao Yicheng patiently swept them into a pile again.
While he was working diligently, Xu Yinsheng was slacking off.
She tentatively waved the broom haphazardly on the ground a few times.
Seeing no reaction from Zhao Yicheng, she quietly shuffled her feet.
Taking advantage of Zhao Yicheng’s inattention or indifference, she ran behind the tombstone to sit and goof off.
Behind Zhao Yicheng’s back, a small hand stealthily picked up a piece of fruit from the offerings and quickly withdrew it.
Xu Yinsheng took a few bites; it was a bit sour, but it tasted better than cat food.
It was normal for these offerings to be a bit sour after sitting for a few days.
They were going to be thrown away anyway, so why not let them go into her stomach?
Leaning against the cold obsidian tombstone, Xu Yinsheng stretched languidly.
She looked up at the sun in the sky through her sunglasses.
With the cloak and sunglasses blocking the light, the sunlight couldn’t touch her body at all.
White clouds, a clear blue sky, a golden sun. Having lived for over twenty years and seen all sorts of landscapes, big and small, this was the first time Xu Yinsheng felt that the sky above her was so beautiful.
No, perhaps it was that, without Zhao Yicheng, having this brief freedom was so wonderful.
Xu Yinsheng squinted.
If it weren’t for Zhao Yicheng, she felt she would definitely take a spontaneous trip.
The world was so big, and she had the money to see it.
The pyramids of Egypt, Mexican chicken wraps, the Eiffel Tower in Paris, Baltic red wine…
Just as she was fantasizing about a wonderful life without Zhao Yicheng, a male voice softly sounded in her ear.
“Little Yin.”
As if waking from a dream, Xu Yinsheng’s eyes snapped open, staring blankly at the large, handsome face barely an inch away.
The next moment, she noticed Zhao Yicheng’s gaze fall upon the apple in her hand, which she had taken a few bites from and still bore her teeth marks.
At some point, Zhao Yicheng had put down the broom and come to stand in front of Xu Yinsheng, without making a sound.
“I, I, I… I didn’t mean to steal it.”
Xu Yinsheng was almost in tears.
She stole food, and got caught doing it.
In their region, stealing offerings for the dead was a big taboo.
Although she wasn’t dead yet, there was no guarantee that Zhao Yicheng, being mentally unstable, wouldn’t think that way.
Zhao Yicheng smiled, like he had caught a pilfering cat.
He raised his hand, and under Xu Yinsheng’s fearful gaze, he took her hand and took the half-eaten apple from her small hand.
“This one’s bad,” he said, pointing to the small green spot on the apple.
He spoke to Xu Yinsheng, and under her terrified gaze, took out a perfectly good apple from the black plastic bag and handed it to her.
“This one’s good, you can eat it,” he said to Xu Yinsheng gently, as if patiently teaching an ignorant kitten.
Xu Yinsheng tremblingly took the apple but didn’t bite into it.
She had imagined Zhao Yicheng punishing her, playing with her, or even making her vomit what she had eaten.
But to so gently give her an apple of such good quality…
Was this also a form of his madness?
Or was it poison…
Ugh, thinking about it, probably not.
She was “Master’s” little kitty.
No matter how big a mistake she made, it wouldn’t be a capital offense.
As if seeing Xu Yinsheng’s worries, Zhao Yicheng smiled and shook his head.
In front of Xu Yinsheng, he lowered his head and took a bite.
“Eat.”
Seeing Zhao Yicheng providing proof by eating it himself, Xu Yinsheng still wasn’t reassured.
After all, she hadn’t forgotten the previous drugging; it was always on her mind.
But she also understood that Zhao Yicheng’s “Eat” wasn’t an invitation but a command.
If she didn’t give Zhao Yicheng face again, it wouldn’t be “eating from above,” but “eating from below” (a euphemism for oral sex).
Xu Yinsheng, having been “domesticated” for a short period, now felt both awe and fear towards Zhao Yicheng, like a fear etched into her DNA.
Sometimes, she could rise up with a burst of courage, but it came and went quickly; once it prolonged, she faltered.
She took a small bite of the apple.
Crispy, juicy, sweet, and delicious – many times better than before.
Xu Yinsheng’s eyes immediately lit up.
Crunch, crunch, she gnawed on the apple like a little squirrel.
Seeing this, Zhao Yicheng contentedly stroked the silver-haired loli’s head.
“Don’t be so afraid of me.”
“I’m not actually sick, and I won’t hurt you.”
“There’s no one in the world who loves you more than I do, do you understand, Little Yin?”
Xu Yinsheng nodded like a pounding garlic, but secretly pouted.
I’d believe a ghost before I’d believe you.
You’re a twisted psychopath.
When Xu Yinsheng finished gnawing the small apple under Zhao Yicheng’s watchful eye, she was just about to speak when Zhao Yicheng handed her a black plastic bag, interrupting her.
“Burn these.”
“What is this?”
Xu Yinsheng weighed the items in the plastic bag.
It wasn’t heavy, probably only the weight of a few notebooks.
“Your past,” Zhao Yicheng smiled, but in Xu Yinsheng’s eyes, that smile was so chilling.
“Burn it all.”
“Say goodbye to your past.”
Xu Yinsheng silently weighed the bag again.
It was still the weight of a few notebooks, unchanging with her mood.
Yet, in her heart, she had already guessed the few items inside.
ID card, household registration book, birth certificate, Hua Yuan Federation interpersonal card… each item was a trace proving “Xu Yinsheng” had existed in this world.
Finally, under Zhao Yicheng’s gaze, Xu Yinsheng nodded silently.
She knew what she could say now, and she knew what the predetermined standard answer was.
“Okay.”
***
Wisps of smoke rose, tiny flames danced on the ground, reflecting on their faces.
On Zhao Yicheng’s face was excitement, joy, a sigh, regret, and new birth.
In contrast, Xu Yinsheng’s expression was numb and bewildered.
The pristine birth certificate fell into the flames.
Its corners first carbonized and curled, then darkness spread to the center, and finally the portrait frame.
The youthful boy in the flames smiled so innocently and brightly, but ultimately turned into a pile of ashes.
This was just the first piece, then the second, the third…
One after another, items proving “Xu Yinsheng’s” existence in the world were personally thrown into the fire by Xu Yinsheng.
She watched them vanish, the white papers fluttering in the flames like moths drawn to a fire, eventually turning into dust.
Everything ended. Zhao Yicheng stood up, but Xu Yinsheng remained squatting, staring blankly at the pile of ashes.
“Little Yin, you did great. Tonight, I’ll make you braised pork ribs.”
Zhao Yicheng swept the pile of ashes with a broom and dumped them into the trash can.
Xu Yinsheng didn’t answer. Instead, she touched her chest, where it felt a little sore, as if something had died.
She simply sat on the ground, leaning against the tombstone.
“And spicy fish.”
“Okay,” Zhao Yicheng nodded.
His eyes were full of overflowing indulgence for her.
As he said, as long as Xu Yinsheng was obedient, he could fulfill all her requests.
“Sit with me for a bit.”
Xu Yinsheng patted the spot beside her.
Zhao Yicheng gently sat down next to Xu Yinsheng.
A man and a woman, a feeder and a pet, thus sat shoulder to shoulder on the marble tombstone steps.
When did they have oral sex and what do you mean getting fucked in the pussy this time hasn’t that already been done what’s there to lose anymore and only being ok with the idea of doing oral sex? Man this novel keeps skipping sex sence then using words to imply it nonstop I don’t even what did she mean when she said he would embrace her like a body pillow kiss her in her sleep and when she wakes her her lips are dry from being sucked so man while she’s sleeping,also she said he also stripes her naked in her sleep while embracing her and even roughly touches her with his blazing body does that mean he’s rubbing his dong on her while she’s asleep stripping her bare naked, kissing her while rubbing his cock on her.