Chapter 41: Pissing pants…

It took Lin Xinyuan over two hours to finally finish tidying up the room. Looking at the refreshed space, Lin Xinyuan stood with hands on hips and nodded with satisfaction.

“This feels much better!”

Wiping the fine beads of sweat from her forehead, she noticed the sky outside the window had already begun to dim.

“It’s past six already…” Lin Xinyuan checked her phone and murmured to herself.

After ordering takeout on Meituan, she planned to take a shower first. Shortly after finishing her shower, while she was still drying her hair with a towel, the delivery driver called, followed immediately by a knock at the door. Fortunately, this apartment complex didn’t ban delivery workers from entering; otherwise, she would have had to walk down to the security booth to pick it up.

Hearing the commotion outside, Lin Xinyuan didn’t respond immediately. Instead, she went to the door and looked through the peephole. Only after verifying the driver and the order information on the app did she open the door.

It never hurts to be careful…

A moment after the delivery driver knocked, the door finally opened, and a pale, delicate hand reached out. The driver followed the arm up and was instantly stunned.

Before him stood a short-haired girl. She was exceptionally beautiful, though perhaps because of her eyebrows, she possessed a certain heroic aura. Her style was somewhat neutral, but it didn’t diminish her prettiness; rather, it gave her a unique charm. Likely because she had just showered, her dark hair was still damp, with a few stray strands clinging to her ivory cheek, adding a hint of unintended allure.

The driver froze, his face flushing—whether from shyness or something else, he wasn’t sure. Luckily, he was wearing a windproof mask, so Lin Xinyuan couldn’t see his expression.

“Hello, miss. Ending digits ****, this is your order, right?” the driver said quickly, carefully handing the food to her.

“Mhm… yes, thank you.” A soft, sweet voice drifted into his ears like a feather brushing against his heart. His heart seemed to skip a beat as the weight of the bag left his hand.

“Click—thud“

The door closed.

The driver stood there for a moment, unresponsive. It took a few seconds for him to snap out of it, the faint lingering scent still hanging in the air.

“Man, she’s a real ten…” the driver lamented. He had to admit she was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen, and she looked like she wasn’t even wearing makeup. Of course, he only let his mind wander for a second before thinking about telling his buddies about this later… Then, he moved on to his next delivery; he still had many orders to finish.

Inside, Lin Xinyuan had no idea what the driver was thinking. Even if she did, she would only feel more miserable about her situation.

After eating, she spent her time writing. Since there were no classes tomorrow, being Saturday, she tried to get as many words down as possible before scrolling through some videos. Near midnight, the lights went out.

The night passed in silence.

The early morning temperature was exceptionally cold. The figure on the bed slowly woke up, her eyes slightly blurry as she stared at the ceiling.

Lin Xinyuan hadn’t slept well last night. It felt as though she had only managed to catch a bit of sleep in the latter half of the night before waking up again. The change in environment certainly affected her sleep quality, but a large part of it was her state of mind.

She had spent many nights like this lately. After Qin Nanfeng’s consolation, things seemed to have improved significantly on the surface. Yet, deep down, she still felt a sense of numbness.

“How much will I change today…”

Watching her body transform while being powerless to stop it made her feel like she was on the verge of a breakdown, like a volcano about to erupt. She reached out and numbly wiped the moisture from the corners of her eyes with the back of her hand—this had become her mandatory morning ritual. She forced a smile until her expression looked normal.

Today… is another beautiful day… right?

She slid the jade bracelet off her wrist. After a sensation of “falling” that was even weaker than the last time, her chest suddenly felt lighter. She tossed the bracelet onto the nightstand.

She was about to climb out of bed as if descending a bunk ladder, but then she realized the width of the bed was wrong. She froze for a second before remembering she had moved out of the dorms. Lin Xinyuan felt a bit helpless toward herself; she was probably sleeping herself stupid.

Her gaze fell on the bed. The bedding she had brought clearly didn’t fit this double bed, leaving sections of the bedboard exposed on both sides. Coupled with her tossing and turning during the night, the blankets were a mess, looking rather comical. She had to make do for now; this situation would last another day or two since the new bedding she ordered online hadn’t arrived yet.

She had to save money where she could. Besides, this set was perfectly usable, and Lin Xinyuan wasn’t the type to care much about aesthetics as long as things functioned.

Feeling weak, she got up and headed toward the bathroom. Passing through the balcony, she opened the bathroom door. Once inside, she reached into her waistband, groping around for a while before finding her “little brother.”

Feeling the almost non-existent sensation, she looked down. As expected, there was only a tiny “bean sprout” left. She sighed and prepared to relieve herself.

A minute later, Lin Xinyuan looked down at herself with a face full of grief and indignation.

She, Lin Xinyuan! A dignified eighteen-year-old college student had actually wet her pants like a child…

Looking at the large wet patch on her trousers, she felt like crying. Now, even her right to use the toilet while standing had been revoked! Her “good brother” clearly could no longer support standing; from now on, she had to squat down like a girl.

Well, great. Now she had to do laundry and take another shower. Since she could no longer effectively “aim,” she had to use toilet paper to wipe herself clean. A sense of resignation filled her heart.

Having handled her business, she didn’t leave the bathroom. She stripped off all her clothes and tossed the dirty ones into a basin. However, she suddenly remembered something: she didn’t have any laundry detergent! Because the bottles were too heavy, she hadn’t brought any from the dorm during the move. She had intended to buy some at a local shop yesterday but forgot.

The clothes would have to soak for now. It was 8:00 AM, so the shops downstairs should be opening soon. She figured she would go down and buy some later.

She adjusted the water temperature. The shower head sprayed hot water over her white body. As she washed, she studied her form, noticing that her chest had grown a bit larger again. It was a good thing she hadn’t worn her chest binder to sleep, or she would have woken up feeling suffocated.

At this rate, becoming a complete girl was likely only a matter of a day or two…

After showering, Lin Xinyuan walked out of the bathroom naked. Since there was no one else in the house and the windows were shut tight, she didn’t care. She took a set of clean clothes from the small cabinet. Walking to the bed, her eyes landed on the chest binder she had tossed aside.

She went to pick it up, but then she thought of the bra in the bag from before. Her hand hesitated. She thought to herself: Anyway, I’m out here now. No one will know if I wear it… and it’ll be more comfortable…

Since that “date,” Lin Xinyuan had found that as her body feminized, her chest had become very sensitive—likely due to development. Constant rubbing against fabric was becoming painful. As the curves grew, she had been forced to consider “small clothes” (bras).

But items like that were too easy to discover and hard to wash in a dorm. At the time, her main goal was to hide her chest. In the end, she had chosen to buy a long strip of fabric online. Even though it wasn’t comfortable, it was better than nothing; it hid her growth and kept her secret safe.

Of course, the situation was different now. The weather was cold, so with her current size, it wouldn’t be obvious under a jacket. Plus, living alone meant she didn’t have to worry about washing and drying.

To be honest, given her current appearance, most people who saw her wouldn’t take her for a boy anyway, so the point of hiding was becoming moot. Yet, out of a need for psychological comfort, she still chose to hide as much as possible. It was only because she had a jacket to cover it that she even dared to try.

Thinking of that one piece of “small clothing” she had worn only once, Lin Xinyuan shook her head. When she bought it, she had just followed a method she found online to estimate her size. It felt a bit small then, but for her current self, it was actually too large and clearly didn’t fit.

It seemed she would have to buy a few more, just to be prepared.

As for women’s clothing, Lin Xinyuan had thought about it, but she couldn’t accept it yet—not even if she turned into a girl completely. She felt so conflicted. On one hand, she was anxious to become a “real” girl (at least physically or in the eyes of others), yet on the other hand, she didn’t dare to wear women’s clothes.

Lin Xinyuan gave a bitter smile. She didn’t know what to do, but thinking about it was useless. She tried to push the thoughts away. She skillfully wrapped the binder around her chest, got dressed, took her keys, and headed out.