Silently staring at the message she had just sent, by the time Lin Xinyuan’s little mind had caught up, it was already too late to retract it.
What exactly was she doing?
She actually took the initiative to pour her heart out to that stinky yellow-haired guy?
And it even sounded kind of like she was acting spoiled…
Lin Xinyuan’s head buzzed, leaving her momentarily at a loss.
She wanted to type out an explanation but didn’t know how to defend herself, so in the end, she decided ignorance is bliss and turned off her phone.
Feeling it vibrate, she hesitated about whether to check the message, but was afraid Qin Nanfeng would say something strange.
In the end, curiosity won out, and Lin Xinyuan lit up her phone screen again, feeling both a bit disappointed and relieved at once.
It wasn’t a message from Qin Nanfeng but from Teacher Qi in the Class Group, sending a safety notice for the upcoming holiday…
False alarm.
Lin Xinyuan’s expression was complicated.
She was just about to quietly lock her phone again when, unexpectedly, someone deliberately—almost too coincidentally—sent a message.
Her mood was like a rollercoaster, rising and falling.
Her heart leapt again.
She timidly checked the new message and couldn’t help but be stunned.
“Is it very painful? How does it compare to last time?”
Qin Nanfeng didn’t send a long message full of concern but kept it brief and to the point.
Yet, for some reason, Lin Xinyuan felt a bit…
This guy actually didn’t say those weird things at first…
Maybe he’s still a decent person after all?
Thinking this, Lin Xinyuan’s lips curled into a faint smile, but looking at that new message, she didn’t know how to reply.
If she said it hurt, it would sound like she was acting spoiled…
If she said it didn’t, it would feel like she was pretending, especially since she was the one who messaged Qin Nanfeng first, making herself seem overly sensitive…
Just as Lin Xinyuan pondered how to respond, Qin Nanfeng sent another message, making her heart no longer calm.
“Want me to rub your belly? Otherwise, why did you only finally remember to contact me after your period started?”
Rub her belly…
The girl’s face fell, silently repeating those two words to herself.
The more she repeated them, the redder her cheeks became, as if her complexion had improved significantly.
That stinky yellow-haired guy’s words immediately made her recall what happened that day.
Shameless.
Lin Xinyuan now felt like her head was about to steam from heat—and it definitely wasn’t from shyness!
A strange emotion welled up inside her, her clear, delicate face full of shame and anger.
She really shouldn’t have any good expectations for that stinky yellow-haired guy! Is he even human?
She was in pain enough to take the initiative to message him, and yet he still makes these kinds of jokes!
Lin Xinyuan wasn’t exactly angry at this moment—she just felt pathetic and embarrassed when recalling what they had done before.
The more she thought about it, the more she realized she had unknowingly come to rely on Qin Nanfeng.
Right now, she refused to admit it, but that was just self-deception…
Actually, she understood a lot, but she couldn’t pull herself free, pretending as if nothing had happened.
Lin Xinyuan only hoped their relationship remained strictly that of very good friends, with no hint of ambiguity.
To be honest, she both wanted Qin Nanfeng to come find her and yet also didn’t want him to…
She was afraid that the influence of her physiology would cause her feelings toward the stinky yellow-haired guy to change, pushing their relationship further.
Lin Xinyuan feared she would completely lose herself as a girl in her heart.
Being friends with Qin Nanfeng was fine, but if anything improper began to bloom between them, she feared it would only drive them apart.
After all, Qin Nanfeng knew exactly what kind of person she was.
If he knew she had these kinds of thoughts, he might even feel uncomfortable.
She wasn’t ready to lose Qin Nanfeng as an important friend…
Taking a deep breath to calm herself, Lin Xinyuan decided to pretend she never saw that ambiguous message from Qin Nanfeng.
This guy…
He really loves making her uncomfortable…
But she could only laugh it off—there was no way she’d take it seriously.
“Better than last time, a little.”
Lin Xinyuan carefully chose her words and typed her reply.
She didn’t specify how much it hurt, but the ambiguous answer conveyed her meaning without making her too embarrassed.
Seeing that the girl ignored his teasing words, Qin Nanfeng didn’t mind.
He smiled, having guessed this would be her reaction, which was the normal one, and then continued asking.
“In that case, have you eaten breakfast?”
“I have. Lying in bed…”
“Hmm, rest well. If you really can’t stand it, don’t torture yourself. Take medicine if you need to.”
Qin Nanfeng didn’t choose to tease Lin Xinyuan any further and responded rather seriously.
Jokes aside, he was clear about the girl’s physical condition.
She was too weak…
How would she hold up in the future?
Their chat ended shortly afterward, and Lin Xinyuan’s body really wasn’t feeling well.
She still needed to rest more…
In the silent night, the girl slept soundly, almost all day without proper rest.
No matter how uncomfortable her body was, exhaustion finally overcame it.
“Xiaoyuan?”
The surrounding environment was dreamlike, as if she were in a garden blooming with multicolored flowers.
Lin Xinyuan felt as if she were being held in someone’s arms.
She quickly lowered her head, only to find that the large hand wrapped around her waist was so familiar.
Distinct knuckles, slender but strong…
She was sitting on the young man’s lap, feeling quite uncomfortable, yet strangely secure.
Lin Xinyuan tried to turn her head to see his face, but no matter what she did, she couldn’t move her head, as if it were restrained, only able to look forward.
Those large hands grew bolder, wandering relentlessly over her fragile body, going deeper…
A vivid dream.
Though far apart, both of them had the same dream and were immersed in it for a moment…
“It’s over…”
Lin Xinyuan glanced at the sanitary pad, which besides the dark red stain had some unknown moisture, and covered her face, overwhelmed with shame and frustration.
Who would’ve thought that last night she dreamed about that guy…
And she actually…
In the dream, she was touched by him…
This dream was just awful.
Though there was no real sensation, because she had never experienced it, it was naturally impossible to dream about how it felt to be a girl.
The dream stopped at the crucial moment, forcing her to wake.
But the feeling of those big hands touching her was still vivid, especially when those sticky piggy hands groped her little butt—it almost felt like it wasn’t a dream…
She was too messed up—actually using that stinky yellow-haired guy… a guy, as material for her dreams!
How was she going to face people?
If he found out, he’d probably tease her mercilessly.
Just thinking about that scene made Lin Xinyuan’s breath catch a little.
Luckily it was just a dream, and only she knew about it…
It was all the fault of this body, constantly dragging her down!
Lin Xinyuan didn’t want to recall the dream, but the more she tried not to, the clearer the memories became.
They kept popping up endlessly, like stubborn chewing gum she just couldn’t shake off, leaving her a little unsettled.
Forcing down the inner restlessness, the girl changed her sanitary pad and, still feeling weak, stepped out of the bathroom.
“Xiaoyuan, breakfast time!”
“Got it.”
Tang Yayun’s call came as usual.
Although she wasn’t feeling well, Lin Xinyuan still took the time to tidy up her appearance before leaving the room, so she wouldn’t look sloppy.
Since fully becoming a girl, Lin Xinyuan had paid more and more attention to her clothes and grooming, a sharp contrast to the “him” who used to care little about appearance.
Lin Xinyuan’s lips curved bitterly.
It turned out she had completely accepted the girl she had become without realizing it, even unconsciously wanting to dress herself up.
To be honest, humans really are adaptable creatures.
Despite crying and resisting so much before, now that she was used to it, it didn’t seem so bad after all…
Ridiculous… it’s only been a few months!
And it’s already like this!
Ah! Help…