Su Ziyan sat on the edge of the bed, deep in sage time, when the question suddenly popped into his mind for no particular reason.
What should a bad woman look like?
He turned his head and looked at Cheng Qingyun lying on the bed.
He felt quite proud of himself for finding the answer in less than three seconds.
The two of them had been together for four years.
From their junior year of college to now, two years after graduation, four and a half years had passed.
Yet Su Ziyan still felt he had never truly seen through this woman.
Her “love” for him was sometimes passionate and sometimes so cold it was unbelievable.
If she did not love him, she had already introduced him to her parents and stood firmly by his side even when her mother disliked him.
But if she truly loved him, their relationship always felt distant.
Cheng Qingyun was often so busy that she would go many days without contacting him at all.
She treated his words lightly and never seemed to care, always moving forward only according to her own wishes.
Su Ziyan could receive her “love,” but he could never change her.
Every time his patience was about to reach its limit and he wanted to suggest breaking up, she would suddenly appear like she did last night, saying she loved him and giving him passionate kisses and hugs…
It made him swallow the words of breaking up in the heat of her “love.”
It seemed that “I love you” was just an absurd slogan, and the romance between them existed only in silent kisses.
Afterward, according to the usual pattern, Cheng Qingyun would stay clingy by his side for a few days.
During those times she would be both passionate and attentive toward him, making it impossible for Su Ziyan to resist and completely erasing his dissatisfaction…
Sometimes Su Ziyan wondered what he was in her eyes.
Was he a lover she wanted to spend her life with, or just a lover she would think of when she needed warmth…
In the end, the conclusion was that he was a lover.
Yes, even though Cheng Qingyun was sometimes cold and sometimes disappeared, she still loved Su Ziyan.
She carefully observed his state and would always make time to appear in front of him whenever his patience was about to reach its limit.
There were no other men she was close to.
She proudly introduced Su Ziyan to everyone around her.
When others gossiped, she would unhesitatingly pull out photos of the two of them to introduce her boyfriend.
Of course, as a young lady of high status, many shameless flies would stick to her, but she would deal with them without hesitation, sending people to disgust them until they no longer dared to harass her.
At the same time, not a single one of those flies would cross her defenses to harass Su Ziyan.
She was really great.
But Su Ziyan just could not see through her inner thoughts.
It just felt like the two of them were clearly a couple, yet they did not feel like a couple at all.
Every time he made eye contact with Cheng Qingyun, it felt like looking at flowers through mist.
They seemed hazy, as if separated by an entire world.
It was a bit absurd.
This kind of romantic relationship was clearly not what Su Ziyan wanted, and it should not have lasted long…
Yet the two of them had already gone through four and a half full years like this.
During this time, no one had even mentioned breaking up.
At least every time Su Ziyan wanted to bring it up, she easily handled him.
For example, he had been thinking about breaking up these past two days, but as soon as he opened the door tonight, he received her passionate kiss.
Normally, he should not still be thinking about breaking up, but the thought kept rising uncontrollably and lingered in his mind.
Suggesting a breakup right after sex on the bed would make him too much of a scumbag, right?
This kind of behavior made him feel somewhat…
“Ziyan, I’m so tired…”
The girl lying on the bed hugged him.
“How about you carry me to the shower…”
Cheng Qingyun’s voice was always soft and fluffy like cotton candy, sounding completely harmless.
Only those who knew her well understood how dirty this person’s heart really was.
You’re a pillow princess.
Where exactly are you tired?
Su Ziyan wanted to complain as usual, but for some reason, the words changed the moment they left his mouth.
“Cheng Qingyun, let’s break up.”
Time seemed to stop for a moment.
Only when the arm hugging his waist tightened slightly did he come back to his senses.
“Are you serious?”
Cheng Qingyun’s voice was still soft and fluffy, yet it carried a trace of coldness, like tiny ice shards mixed into cotton candy.
“Su Ziyan, I don’t like jokes like this. I don’t want to joke with you on this kind of occasion either.”
To be honest, this was the first time Su Ziyan had ever heard such coldness in this woman’s voice.
After all, she was only polite and distant with outsiders.
No matter how much someone annoyed her, she would never show her negative emotions so directly.
This tone—soft on the outside but hiding ice inside—was something Su Ziyan was hearing for the first time, and he found it a little refreshing.
Refreshing or not, the words that came out of Su Ziyan’s mouth were still ruthless.
“But you don’t love me. You once said you don’t understand love, and that our relationship was just an experiment… But now I really feel so tired, so tired. So let’s break up.”
“I really don’t know much about how to love someone.”
Cheng Qingyun’s tone unconsciously softened.
“But I’ve always been learning how to love you…”
She paused for a moment, then stopped speaking.
She silently got up and started putting on her clothes.
“Since we’re breaking up, I won’t stay the night here.”
Her voice became polite and distant again, exactly like the tone Su Ziyan had heard countless times when she spoke to strangers.
“Tomorrow I’ll send someone to pick up my things.”
Cheng Qingyun could obviously tell he was not joking, but she still said those words, wanting to give him a chance to take them back.
But Su Ziyan had no intention of regretting it at all, so she did not continue speaking.
Cheng Qingyun was arrogant to an unbelievable degree deep down.
In Su Ziyan’s evaluation, she treated everyone else like idiots, so she would not question or beg him to stay.
She would only choose to leave silently.
The words she had just said were already beyond Su Ziyan’s expectations.
Based on his understanding of her, even if she said something, it would not have been so weak.
So he simply sat there bored, reached out to open the drawer of the bedside table, and found half a pack of cigarettes from a long time ago still inside.
When the two of them were together, Cheng Qingyun disliked him smoking, so he had gradually smoked less and less.
The remaining half pack had been sealed in the drawer for a long time and only saw the light of day again today.
Cheng Qingyun, fully dressed, did not speak.
She only glanced lightly at the cigarette in his hand, then turned and walked away.
It must have been hard for her.
With her princess-like personality that believed using hotel shampoo would ruin her hair, she actually put on her clothes without showering and planned to leave directly.
After all, in her eyes he was already a stranger.
She had always been decisive and never dragged things out.
“Su Ziyan, actually, I have never raised a cat.”
She suddenly looked up and said this sentence out of nowhere.
Su Ziyan did not understand, so he was stunned for a moment and did not notice the embarrassment hidden in her eyes.
He simply put the lit cigarette to his mouth, took a puff, and stared blankly at her back as she closed the door through the drifting white smoke.
No matter how many times he looked, it really felt so similar.