“Don’t… don’t do that…”
She shook her head weakly, her whole body bound and completely unable to move. This was the only way she could express her resistance.
‘If that kind of thing actually happened, what would happen?’
‘She had only been a girl for two weeks. No one knew about it yet. And now, the most precious chastity of a girl was about to be taken by her adopted younger sister, who had grown up with her.’
‘If others found out, how would they see her?’
‘She was already a freak. If she became impure, would she never be able to return to her former life?’
‘Would her mother still want her? Would Liu Yinuo despise her because of this?’
Countless thoughts flooded her mind, but unable to move, she could only express her resistance with sobs.
“Let me go… please…”
‘How… did it come to this?’
‘Last night it was fine, this morning everything was normal, so why…’
Seeing Ye Xingmian’s tears fall, Lin Ziyan felt a pang of reluctance.
Her head seemed to calm down a little. At that moment, she truly realized that if she took this step, there would be no turning back.
‘If she actually raped her, would she hate her?’
‘Probably.’
‘How much would she hate?’
‘Would she have enough time to dissipate that hatred?’
A flicker of hesitation appeared in her eyes, but it quickly vanished.
‘No, now was not the time to dwell on this. This was already her only chance.’
‘At this point, their relationship could never go back to how it was. Besides… Ye Xingmian’s personality had always been weak, and her identity was sensitive.’
‘She definitely wouldn’t want others to know about this, and there was no need to worry about her spreading the word.’
Lin Ziyan’s gaze darkened.
She had wasted a bit of time. She began to examine the girl beneath her once more.
Her jet-black hair spread out on the bedsheet like a flower. Her eyes were red—was it from crying?
Her eyes weren’t fully open, but through the gaps in her eyelids, those beautiful pink pupils could be seen.
“Big Sister” had a small frame and a frail body. She could clearly see “Big Sister’s” slender arms, the protruding ribs above her lower abdomen, and her thin waist.
It was hard to imagine how this thin “Big Sister” had endured all the rough work her parents had assigned to her since childhood.
But even more glaring were the scars and bruises all over her body, silently telling of the violence this girl had suffered.
She leaned down and pulled the girl into her arms.
She could feel the breath that involuntarily stopped with her movement, and the increasingly rapid heartbeat.
The thin “Big Sister” had a pair of breasts that didn’t match her frame.
Hugging her wasn’t uncomfortable; instead, it was soft and felt good.
“Big Sister, accept me. I won’t be worse than Liu Yinuo. I’ll treat you gently, I’ll take care of you. You don’t have to do anything. From now on, those painful things will have nothing to do with you, okay?”
It seemed like some faint sound came from downstairs, but neither of them noticed.
“Let me go…”
It appeared that Ye Xingmian hadn’t listened to her words at all; she was still sobbing and refusing.
Lin Ziyan sat up silently and looked down at her from above.
She finally lost her last illusions and decided to act according to her original plan.
‘She just wanted “Big Sister” to stay by her side and not run away. That was enough.’
‘As for what “Big Sister” thought, she didn’t need to care.’
She bit her lip, and her voice and expression softened.
“It might hurt a little. Can you bear with it, Big Sister?”
“Wah… no… please… I’m begging you. I’ll do anything, but not this…”
“I only want you to stay by my side.”
“I will… I will… Let me go… please…”
“No, you’re lying.”
“I’m not…”
“When I can’t keep an eye on you, you’ll definitely run away.”
Lin Ziyan’s gaze was somewhat obsessed.
Her hand silently rested on Ye Xingmian’s underwear.
“Only if I make you unable to leave me…”
“No… don’t! Really, I beg you! I won’t run away. Really, I won’t run.”
Feeling the crisis, the girl struggled desperately.
Even though Lin Ziyan was still sitting on her, she violently twisted her waist, as if she would rather break it than get her off.
Lin Ziyan gritted her teeth and pressed her down.
“Don’t move!”
But Ye Xingmian didn’t listen and continued to struggle violently.
She lifted her head with difficulty, tears streaming from the corners of her eyes.
She got angry, moved her hands from the girl’s lower body to her neck, and grabbed Ye Xingmian’s throat.
The pain of not being able to breathe forced Ye Xingmian to stop moving.
A suffocating sensation swept over her mind, strength drained from her body little by little, her head spun, and darkness closed in.
“Ugh… you… no… I can’t…”
The force was so strong that she rolled her eyes.
Lin Ziyan finally released her.
Finally able to breathe, Ye Xingmian gasped for air.
Two more glaring red marks were left on her white neck, overlapping with the old, faded traces.
“…Behave. I don’t want to use force on you.”
Lin Ziyan threatened.
Lying on the bed, unable to move, only the feeling of hot tears falling from the corners of her eyes was particularly clear.
‘It hurt so much, it was so painful…’
‘For some reason, these people all liked to choke her neck.’
‘Qin Haiyue was like that, and Lin Zi was too.’
‘Every time she was choked, she suffered greatly.’
‘It was a feeling that her life was like a weed, held in someone else’s hand, to be taken or given as they pleased.’
‘If someone wanted her dead, she would die. There was no sense of security at all.’
‘Not to mention that suffocation was already hard to bear…’
Staring blankly at the clean ceiling, she had given up struggling.
‘Nothing ever went her way. The things she cherished were always taken away by others casually.’
‘That toy bear was like that, her chastity was like that, and even her life was like that.’
‘She was like a lonely, helpless weed, uprooted by the storm, passed among those people, with no control over her own fate.’
‘This was her life, this was her fate.’
‘Either suffer or rely on others.’
‘That should have been a simple choice, but she naively thought she had a way out, some leeway, so she didn’t need to rush and could endure it on her own.’
‘But reality never hesitated to inflict violence on her.’
‘Only now did she understand that she had no right to choose.’
‘But it was all too late.’
Now, she couldn’t help but think, if Liu Yinuo knew what happened, how would she see her?
What about Mom?
Would she still acknowledge her?
Or would she discard her like a stinking piece of trash?
‘Dreams…’
‘Dreams were always beautiful.’
In a daze, Ye Xingmian seemed to see the mother from last night’s dream.
‘If… if it were that mother, she would surely accept her, right?’
‘After all, she loved her so much…’
The world before her became blurry, as if she had fallen into an illusion. Everything was far away.
Except for the sensation of her underwear being pulled down, which was so clear.
And her own weak cries, so piercing.
Lin Ziyan’s goal seemed about to be achieved. She felt a rare excitement, even though the person beneath her was still crying.
A blush spread across her face. The indoor heater roared, so there was no need to worry about the cold.
Until…
An abrupt door-opening sound.
Outside the door, an uninvited guest who shouldn’t have been back at this time appeared.