‘Which one would be better?’
Jiang Lai’s fingertips gently curled behind Xu Ruobing’s waist, the fabric pinched into tiny wrinkles. She looked at the stunning face so close, and in Xu Ruobing’s eyes, there was still the warmth from the kiss just now.
But what the other person asked made Jiang Lai not know how to answer.
This sudden question was thrown into her heart unexpectedly, rippling in chaotic circles.
‘How should I say it?’
Except for Chi Yingyu and Shen Ruxue, she actually didn’t remember the feeling of anyone else. Could it be said that the feeling of kissing comes and goes quickly?
Besides the heartbeat during the kiss, the softness of lips touching each other, it was mostly a daze in the mind, everything else was a psychological feeling.
And this point was completely different. Now, being asked by Xu Ruobing like this, the vague feelings of the past, those precious fragments bit by bit, suddenly became clear.
Jiang Lai now had a very two-timer thought: that the feeling of each person’s kiss was really about the same, just the scent on the body and whether the other person would get handsy or something…
The physical sensations seemed all the same, but psychologically and emotionally they were completely different.
For Jiang Lai, the most important thing brought by kissing was the emotion.
The feelings Chi Yingyu and Xu Ruobing gave her were completely different.
Xu Ruobing’s kiss… Jiang Lai thought quietly, looking at Xu Ruobing’s gaze toward her. Right now, Xu Ruobing’s thumb was still gently rubbing her lower lip, the light in her eyes fine and bright, making her want to get closer.
But she was also afraid. Afraid that Ruobing would feel unsatisfied after hearing it, afraid that her unadorned answer would hurt the other person.
She wanted to tell the other person her thoughts, but she was afraid of saying it badly, afraid that her expression wouldn’t be accurate enough.
She opened her mouth, but still couldn’t speak, because of fear.
Jiang Lai’s fingertips tightened again, gripping the corner of Xu Ruobing’s clothes, her fingertips rubbing against the texture of the fabric.
She looked up, meeting Xu Ruobing’s eyes, the rims of her eyes slightly red, and said:
“If you want to ask about what my body felt, those previous kisses, I can’t remember the details. If there was anything unique, it was probably all similar.”
Her voice was a little choked, but very serious.
“Ruobing, I don’t know how to describe it.”
“But what’s different is the emotion.”
“The emotion of kissing you is unique; it’s an emotion that only happens with you…”
She paused, sniffled, gently touched Xu Ruobing’s cheek with her fingertips, and leaned in again, gently rubbing.
The feeling of kissing anyone was completely different; that was true.
But she didn’t fully tell the truth of what she felt.
When kissing Chi Yingyu, what she felt was happiness, the expectation of wanting to spend the rest of her life with her.
When kissing Shen Ruxue, what was born in her heart was more guilt, the desire to make up for everything missing in the past.
But facing Xu Ruobing… What she thought in her heart was completely different.
Only the pleasure of a secret affair remained… In this matter, she was really cheap, but she was also very willing to indulge.
She was just a two-timer, and to some extent, a wanton cheap person, really super bad.
Xu Ruobing was at least a bad person in action toward her.
But she was psychologically. One was unwilling to let go, the other wanted too much.
“Can you do more things to me? I really want to feel it…”
Xu Ruobing’s finger movements suddenly stopped.
She didn’t answer immediately, just leaned down to lightly rest her chin in Jiang Lai’s neck, the tip of her nose brushing against her warm skin, the scent of cedar wrapped in her breath, seeping into Jiang Lai’s collar strand by strand.
“What do you want to feel?”
Before she finished speaking, Jiang Lai had already shrunk into her arms, hugging tighter, her cheek pressed against Xu Ruobing’s chest, clearly feeling the warm body under her shirt.
Her voice was very low, with a slight hoarseness from just being kissed.
“Is it to make me hold tighter, or…”
Her palm slowly moved up along Jiang Lai’s waistline, her fingertips gently pressing over the outline under the fabric.
The fabric was heated to warmth by body temperature. Jiang Lai’s fingertips gently brushed Xu Ruobing’s waist side, where the skin tensed slightly, then quickly relaxed, as if responding to her touch.
Xu Ruobing took the opportunity to turn around, completely encircling Jiang Lai in her arms.
Their chests pressed together. Jiang Lai could hear Xu Ruobing’s strong heartbeat, gradually overlapping with her own chaotic rhythm.
Xu Ruobing’s hand gently cupped the back of Jiang Lai’s head, her fingertips slowly sliding down along the soft hair behind her ear, stopping at her shoulder blade, giving a light squeeze.
“Are you afraid?”
Xu Ruobing looked down at her reddening earlobe, her lips almost touching her ear.
“If I do something even more excessive, will you regret it?”
Jiang Lai shook her head, her fingertips gripping the hem of Xu Ruobing’s shirt, burying her face deeper into her neck.
Warm breath puffed on Xu Ruobing’s collarbone, making her also tremble slightly.
“No regrets…”
Jiang Lai’s voice was muffled, with a hint of self-abandonment, having given up hiding herself.
“On the contrary, I’m very excited now.”
Xu Ruobing let out a very light laugh from her throat, with a bit of helplessness, yet hiding unresolvable indulgence.
She slowly tightened her arms, hugging Jiang Lai until she could hardly breathe.
Jiang Lai could feel the warmth of Xu Ruobing’s palm seeping through the fabric, warming from her back to her heart, and even the unease of the secret affair was softened nine parts by this warmth.
Xu Ruobing lowered her head to nuzzle Jiang Lai’s hair, her voice full of laughter.
“You’re clearly panicking yourself, and yet you dare to ask for more.”
“Then I’ll satisfy you properly.”
Jiang Lai didn’t argue, just reached out, gently hooking her fingertips on the buttons of Xu Ruobing’s shirt and slowly pulling them down.
When Jiang Lai’s fingertips touched the warm skin, she flinched as if burned, but was quickly held down by Xu Ruobing.
She could always feel Xu Ruobing’s heartbeat so easily.
The hugs she gave were so passionate. Suddenly, Jiang Lai’s nose stung. She thought of the stability when hugging Chi Yingyu, and the guilt when touching Shen Ruxue.
But at this moment, holding Xu Ruobing’s hand, there was only surging desire in her heart. Craving more touch, more warmth.
“Ruobing…”
Jiang Lai looked up at her, eyes rimmed red, lips trembling slightly.
“Am I, this bad woman, really that charming? To make you keep thinking about me…”
Xu Ruobing didn’t wait for her to finish speaking and leaned in to kiss her.
This kiss was deeper, more urgent than before, with a tenderness that couldn’t be refused.
Jiang Lai closed her eyes, letting herself sink into the kiss, her arms clinging tightly to Xu Ruobing’s waist, as if to embed herself into her body.
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