“Ruobing, do you want me?”
Jiang Lai was very clear—ever since the beginning, their relationship had been constantly skating on the edge of ambiguity.
The way they interacted was definitely not something that could be described as simple friends or even close girlfriends.
If it weren’t for the physical thrills and desires both kept suppressing with their own rationality, their relationship would have long crossed that dangerous boundary.
It wouldn’t be as pure as it was now.
Although their interactions were extremely flirtatious—almost as if kissing had become a necessary ritual between them—it was still safe, never crossing the final step.
But recently, Jiang Lai felt their relationship with Ruobing growing increasingly ambiguous and complicated.
What was already tangled had only become more twisted, making it impossible for Jiang Lai to clearly understand what exactly she felt toward Ruobing.
This unknown and blurry state made Jiang Lai feel deeply uneasy.
In her impression, she disliked such vagueness; unclear situations left too much room for maneuvering, robbed her of a sense of security, and even made her unsure how to be with Ruobing.
Jiang Lai’s sudden question made Ruobing shrug, her whole demeanor sagging noticeably.
“Jiangjiang, do you want the truth, or just pretty words?”
“Of course I want the truth. Even if you said polite things now, I’d know they’re not real.”
“If it’s the truth, then everything I’ve said to you is true—all along, every word was sincere. I really want you, Jiangjiang. I want to savor your delicious taste.”
You might think I’m joking or teasing you, but if I didn’t have these thoughts in my heart, how could I say such things?
Ruobing’s passionate and earnest words felt like a feather lightly falling on Jiang Lai’s heart, stirring ripples across her calm mind.
Jiang Lai was stunned.
Suddenly, her cheeks burned as if on fire.
They locked eyes.
Even though they had been pressed closely together countless times before—doing even the most shameful things—today, just Ruobing’s words caught her completely off guard.
She covered her chest, her heart racing wildly, like a startled fawn.
If Ruobing truly felt what she said, then maybe it wasn’t impossible.
But Jiang Lai had too many things to deal with lately.
Her sister-in-law was about to move in, and she still didn’t know how to interact with her.
There was a live stream in two days; even though they had rehearsed many times, Jiang Lai worried she might let Ruobing down.
Every time Jiang Lai felt how good Ruobing was to her, she couldn’t help but wonder what Ruobing was truly longing for in her.
She clearly felt unworthy of all this, yet Ruobing always prepared everything for her, treating her like a little dog desperate to please her Host, cradling her tenderly in the palm of her hand.
Ruobing was far too good to her—a superstar high above, yet always at her service, always considerate, always preparing everything just for her.
And now, Jiang Lai had almost nothing to give back.
This feeling of being spoiled and cared for unconditionally created a strong sense of unworthiness in Jiang Lai’s heart; she felt she didn’t deserve such treatment.
This feeling accumulated inside her until she was absolutely certain she could never repay Ruobing’s kindness.
If she didn’t do something soon, Jiang Lai felt she would be crushed under this pressure.
“Ruobing, then if you want… why don’t we find a chance to go to a hotel together?”
Jiang Lai’s light words fell like thunder from a clear sky, leaving Ruobing dumbfounded, almost losing her composure.
“Why?”
Ruobing didn’t feel joyous at Jiang Lai’s words; only a flood of questions filled her mind.
“Because this is all I have—this body. Ruobing, my impression of you isn’t bad. On the contrary, I like you very much.
Although it hasn’t reached love yet, in just these few days, you’ve already become one of the most important people in my heart. So, if it’s you, I don’t mind entrusting myself to you.”
Hearing Jiangjiang’s words, Ruobing was filled with confusion and incomprehension at first, but then it dawned on her.
“You want to use your body to repay me, don’t you?”
Ruobing closed her eyes.
She understood, at least to some extent, why Jiang Lai would think this way.
“But I don’t need that kind of repayment. And the way I treat you isn’t because I want to take anything from you. I just want to see you shine with your own charm, to see you bloom into your most beautiful self.
There’s absolutely no intention of using this to blackmail you or to get you by exploiting your vulnerability. I despise that kind of behavior.”
Ruobing was nothing like Si Yina, a complete robber who wanted what she desired no matter the cost, ruthlessly taking whatever she wanted by force.
She was not that kind of person.
Although she harbored countless fantasies and desires for Jiang Lai, everything had to be based on mutual feelings.
Forcing things or seeking compensation out of guilt was something she didn’t want at all.
“What I want is for you to like me, and for me to like you. Only then will I be truly happy. More than going to a hotel with you, I want to understand you better.”
Jiang Lai quietly looked at Ruobing’s profile.
Her ink-black hair fell softly, perfectly outlining her beautiful facial features.
Her eyelids lowered slightly, the long lashes curling at the ends and fluttering like dense raven feathers.
“Ruobing… what if I said it’s me who wants to be with you?”
Ruobing’s index finger trembled.
Her mind blanked as if it had crashed, unable to respond.
But seeing Jiangjiang’s clearly pursed lips, Ruobing knew very well that she was putting on a brave front.
If she truly had that kind of courage, why would their intimacy still have stalled?
“Then Jiangjiang, don’t resist next.”
Ruobing’s intense kisses fell on her slender, graceful neck, leaving no inch of skin untouched.
Every kiss made Jiang Lai’s heart tremble, as if she were a drifting water lily, unsettled on the lake’s surface.
“……”
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