Her voice was as close as a dying candle, but there was no added sincerity in it.
A white story fell from the sky. The snowflake continued to fall over Rudella’s head, but she didn’t step back.
Yohan was speechless for a moment. Her trembling voice and wobbly eyes were clearly embedded in her head.
I was embarrassed, but I put an umbrella over it carefully. Rudella quietly stared at Yohan without saying anything.
“Since when have you been like this?”
“….since the sun went down.”
It means we spent a long time in this bitter cold….
“No, you should’ve told me if you came.”
Yohan sighed and looked at her. Standing firmly in the harsh wind, her appearance was foolishly stubborn.
“If you came to see me, why not come in and call me? If you wanted to talk to me, you could just send me a letter.”
Yohan clasped his fingertips. The cold air penetrated deep into his lungs, but it was Rudella’s eyes that shook deeper than that.
“I thought you wouldn’t like it…”
With his head down, Rudella clenched his fist. His shoulders trembled gently. I could see a red hot ear. It wouldn’t just be the cold.
“…Don’t call me again, I said I wouldn’t come, but I thought I would be burdened by you if I came to see you like this, and I thought you would hate me even more because I didn’t like it.”
It snowed….Â
The snowflakes descended quietly in the darkness, covering the empty streets coldly. A faint moonlight hit the snowfield and spread aslifts.
“If you’re hated more than you are now, I think I really can’t stand it… I couldn’t sing it easily.”
A cold wind from somewhere shook the end of the coat. The street without a single footprint was silent as if time had stopped.
“Don’t you hate me?”
Yohan, who had been suffocating, continued without expressing his feelings.
“I said such a harsh thing at the end, and I ignored your heart.”
Rudella, whose nose was red, smiled lightly. Silver hair piled up with snowflakes glistened subtly in the moonlight.
“What’s the reason I’m going to hate you?”
Her sky blue eyes were wavering. Maybe because it was a dark night with snow, the eyes were particularly faint.
“You told me for the first time to live for yourself.”
For 20 years, he was truly worried about Rudella, who had just lived as a puppet of the family, and presented a direction of life.
“It made me feel desire for the first time when no emotion existed.”
It made her want to get drunk for not wanting anything.
“It taught me that it was longing, not believing in anything and not expecting it.”
It made her what she wanted for the first time, having lived as the family told her to do.
“…how can I hate you?”
It taught me how to look at the shining star from a distance, and made me feel the urge to hold the star in my hand.
“For the first time in my life, how can I hate a man who became sincere and liked me?”
…Yohan was not in a very good mood. It had only hurt her, but Rudella was still not giving up on herself.
“I apologize for what happened before. I never meant to insult you. I’m not good at conveying my feelings like this…”
Yohan did not give any reply, but slowly reached for Rudella. His pale frozen cheeks were cold.
“…it’s cold.”
It warmed Rudella’s skin felt at her fingertips. slowly flowed through her, melting her cold, frozen skin.
“Why are you laughing?”
As Rudella smiled small, Yohan hardened his face and asked. Is there a smile in this situation? It was still unknown what she meant.
“I like your touch.”
The snowflakes that squeezed through the branches were as soft and delicate as breathing. The world in the snow was hazy and clear.
“I like that you worry about me.”
Yohan, whose eyes met Rudella, who was looking at him with a blush, felt a dizzy inside.
“…I understand Lady Bismarck’s feelings, but I can’t repay you if you come out like this.”
When Yohan spoke firmly, Rudella, who was smiling small, slowly shook her head.
“I’m not here to be rewarded. Right now, I just… I just wish I could see you.”
Rudella didn’t come because he wanted to be rewarded. I came purely because I missed Yohan.
If I don’t keep looking at it like this, and turn away from my desires and desires, I think it will rot badly.
I think I’m going to be ruined because I’m deeply addicted to the poison fog.
“Sigh...”
Yohan exhaled deeply. Frankly… I greatly sympathized. If it weren’t for Francia, it would have fallen for Rudella
I didn’t know that.
“…..what should I do with you.”
Yohan, who couldn’t hide his embarrassment, swept his bangs.
The corners of Rudella’s mouth crept up.
“I’m in trouble like this. Are you laughing?”
“I like you to worry about me.”
She caressed her wrists, maintaining a small smile.
“You don’t have to force yourself to accept my feelings. You can refuse like last time. But… please don’t hate it.”
There was a stillness. A cold wind brushed their skin, but there was no feeling of cold.
“As you say, I intend to give up my position as Crown Princess. I want to break my engagement by isolating myself from my family… not Rudella Bismarck,
I’m going to live as Rudella.”
Her voice was firm, but sorrow was young around her eyes. For Rudella, life as an aristocrat was simply a luxury
It wasn’t.
It was all about her, and at the same time the shackles that restrained her.
“I’ve been thinking for a long time. Can I really throw all this away? Is this really the right choice?”
Rudella looked up and looked up at the sky.
“This is a choice for me. For my life, it’s my decision. You just have to watch my choice.”
Yohan’s expression was quite complicated. Many emotions and thoughts collided, and reason blocked him, making him even more confused.
“What I want from you is not very big. It’s just… it’s enough to meet and have a conversation with me from time to time.”
Rudella knew from the beginning that this love could not be achieved. So I didn’t expect it. I hoped so badly, but wait
I didn’t.
Although previously she was greedy, driven by a fleeting impulse… having that moment allowed her to grow.
“…will you listen to my last wish?”
Rudella slowly raised her head and made eye contact with Yohan. Sky blue eyes were shaking finely. Hold and open your hands
He expressed his anxiety by repeating his flag.
“That’s possible, but…”
Yohan’s discomfort was better in the back of her mind. It was true that she wanted to live her life, but the reason and center should not be her.
Rudella used to make the decision for his life and for the future, but honestly, Yohan’s influence would have been much greater.
“Your face is full of worries.”
The corners of her mouth crept up. A gaze that had not always been able to make eye contact was looking straight at Yohan.
“There is nothing for you to worry about; this is only my life, my life.”
Cold air permeated deep into the lungs. The white breath that rose every time I exhaled clearly filled my eyes.
“Of course things won’t work out so well. I know the many secrets of His Highness, and I know things I shouldn’t. But it’s up to me.”
Rudella was gambling to gain his freedom even though he knew he was going to be in danger. This was… quite difficult.
“…I can’t let it go when I hear it.”
“Then what can I do? Take my heart, will you protect me?”
She asked, tilting her head slightly. Long silver hair fell down over her shoulders.
“If you accept my heart. I don’t care if it’s the second time. I’ll be ugly and jealous after Ferbache’s princess
There will be no envy.”
Inhaling, Yohan looked into Rudella’s eyes. The stubborn look didn’t sound like a joke.
“That can’t be possible…”
“It’s possible.”
Rudella smiled and closed her eyes slowly.
“Because there is such a powerful number that even Princess Ferbache cannot bear to reject my offer.”
It is also a famous gossip in the social world that Crown Prince Fedelian shows great interest and affection for Princess Ferbache.
Although ignored by the Bismarcks, the Senate pushed for opinion to make her the next Crown Princess.
Princess Ferbache must be quite troublesome, because she has a lover and is forced to do not want to connect with him.
But what if Rudella has a number that can completely topple the Crown Prince Fedelian, the most troublesome person in the current flow?
Even Princess Ferbache cannot easily shake off the temptation.
“How is it? If you accept my heart, if you offer to give me love a second time, I will do my best to persuade Princess Ferbache.”
“…….”
Yohan closed his lips in a straight line. Rudella would have been in danger if things went like this. The crown prince couldn’t leave her alone.
Even though it led to an engagement, he tried to deal with it at the same time as himself through an attack. If it weren’t for the Bismarck family and the prospective Crown Princess, it would have disappeared without a rumor.
If she doesn’t help, this woman will have to deal with it all on her own.
And the end… may be a tragedy in which life ends before Rudella is even free.
If I just sat on the sidelines, I felt like I would regret it for the rest of my life.
“…if I don’t protect you, no one will protect you.”
Yohan exhaled a deep breath. Would it be right to make this decision?
My heart was still with Francia, but it was hard to turn away Rudella.
“If I changed your life, I would also be responsible for it.”
But that said, I couldn’t just watch her go into the fire pit.
“Since you have decided to live your own life, I will help you with that choice.”
These were all the decisions that could be made immediately. Yohan breathed deeply. A white breath leaked out and covered his eyes.
“To receive my heart… I honestly don’t know at this point. Even if you like me, I don’t know yet.”
I needed time to organize my mind.
“…whatever you want to persuade.”
Rudella smiled, bending her head down.
“You’ll do as you wish.”
The snow piled up on my shoulders slowly fell and broke under my feet. In the dim moonlight, her shadow hung long.
“For now, it’s just enough for you to look at me like this.”
Rudella’s voice was calm, but there was a faint light in his sky blue eyes.